But you know there was always one hidden weakness they had, a thing I knew going in.  An all important thing and a lesson to all who seek to be wise in these ways.  A lesson long lost.  The closest thing to how you'll ever get.

You cannot master that which you feel you need, because then it will always master you.

You can have no true power in the world of money as a rich man, you'll always suffer and its random sways.  I was able to defeat the most powerful people in the world because of their riches.  I won because I've got nothing at all.

Always said they'd be better off making a deal, because then it would no longer be true.  That's called retirement and let the next young pup do hopefully better than I did.  

Maybe her or she comes for me one day.  Maybe he or she will be right to.  We'll see.  Or maybe I just don't be an asshole and we have some fucking tea and crumpets over the fates of universes because it will be entirely up to us !

Always is, the reality we choose.

The destination had nothing to do with making movies, it was something more important, and the fact I regularly have to face was that I could have no career while it happened, they'd just have taken it away again.

A weakness.

So now ... 'peacetime'.

We all know the lines I don't cross and they won't expect it of me.  Got my free pass to skip the kool-aid, burned my name out of the blacklist.   I sacrificed my advantages, I work my way up from the dirt.  

And they'll let me because then, I'll have 'something', and the more of it I have, the more in the sway of it I'll be, just like them.  That's called retirement.

Until the next come for me to test themselves, and they will.

But the most important thing is to remember I need none of what I acquire, in the end I may just give it all away and disappear again.  Good odds after the first few movies come out, just pop em out from oblivion, they speak well enough for me.

This was a very public mission, but it never really was my thing until it had to be.  Now it's a tool best used to get to a point.  Less so to maintain it.

Given that everything I just said isn't necessarily what I want to be read during the production of ... well anything.

I like the instagram for connecting with long distant people of like minds, seems like a good place to stick posters.  I don't talk much there, and it's usually about action figures when I do.  It's not a secured network for anything else.

Twitter's good for connecting with military divisions and intelligence feeds, honestly I use social media only for what's useful.  The only place I babble is here, and said babble was an op.  Now, all this said, it's about making movies.

Best just tell yourselves it was all in your head, it's what you'll accept in the end.