Man ... all you need to do to feel better is to right the wrongs you've committed, which is not that hard.  It just means paying for what you stole.  And then we can be blunts blunts bunts, laughing all night long.

But this ... self sympathy bit ... when paying for what you stole is so easy ... what are you even on about.  It doesn't incline forgiveness.  It inclines an eye roll and walking away.

Just pay for what you stole.

New beginnings.  Old endings.

But no I'm not shedding a tear for you now, you spent nearly a decade being an absolute bastard and now you're feeling sorry for yourself because you didn't get away with it like you thought you would and have many times before.

Just cut it out and make it right, or spend the rest of your life feeling how you do right now.  It's out of my control, entirely up to you.  Always was.