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Yeah I have no idea how to do that.  I thought about it.  A lot.  But ... not a single fucking clue.  It's like asking a gun to cut bread.  

I mean I know there's more to me than that, somewhere, theoretically, according to 'people' but the thing I always come back to is that maybe I'm already right for the job.  Maybe the job isn't what you think it is.  Maybe my predecessor isn't what you thought.

So what I can tell you is that if that's what I need to be, something dramatic and life changing will happen which will change my literal everything.  But again, I'm not so sure any of us really know how to do what's never been done before.

How could we.

So ... as truly strange as it is for me to even type these words, have patience.

What I know is that I've nearly completed my recovery.  I feel better than I have in years, stronger, wiser, clearer in the mind.  My time in the woods has served me well, I needed this.  A couple of months to be complete.  Maybe three.

Then ... we will see what we see.  I'm at the point of healing where I'm bored and restless, eager for .. something.  Fucking Anything.

New friends who need the fill in, I live in the woods outside a small town.  The kind of place where people wave from their cars on my long but 'good for me' ( ... ) walk into town, downtown traffic regularly gets stopped by wild deer still struggling how to understand how to use a crosswalk between the parks on either side.

I'd just gotten done managing an apothecary for 15 years, which some new readers may find particularly amusing as yes they knew who I was when they wrote that.  When the shop closed down (Covid killed business), I didn't want to go straight to some shit slop job on the fly and I knew how to heal, so I went walking.

Looking for the best town left in America.  Found it.  You have no idea, this place is great.  Idyllic.  And unfortunately quite boring, it's getting to me.  A couple off months left, maybe three.  

Which times out about right with a lot of things.

I think I'll know then what needs to be done, or at least have a clue.  

As it stands right now ... I think I already know how the relevant situation will turn out which will offer no clue at all.  Those are dominoes I pushed a long time ago.  But what it does mean, is that all prior contracts will have then been fulfilled, and will thus be at that time, open to anything.

I can tell you as it stands, all goes according to plan.

I suspect that plan to have been required for the next step, as such is the way of time.  So let's make it a safe three months, all commitments then closed.

That said.

I have to tell you that if 'words' are what's required, some of them will not be what you may wish to hear.  I've studied the scrolls, the archaeology, the renaissance history, and I've traced all the names.  

You worship a false god, a dead one in fact.  One which compelled your flock to pedophilia and gold.  So when we speak of God, we're talking about something you didn't know existed at all.  

Something which will betray the falseness of your idols.

Is my work done ?  Could it be done in my hunt, while those at the historical core of modern slavery, the denigration of women and abuse of children, have still even yet failed to hear the Word ?  

Perhaps I think my work in hollywood and fashion, politics and press, nobility and pimps may be, but it only clears my slate, for you.  The name of your god is Yaldabaoth.  

He fell several years ago, as predicted to herald the new age.  It was he who compelled your people again, to gold and pedophilia.  More locally known, his name was Baal.  His fall is what brought about this series off events, the collapse off all these pillars we've seen.

His symbol the torture of his enemy, carried high in battle throughout the crusades while every marched step was a betrayal of everything his enemy believed in.  Gold was amassed.  Power in the courts was accrued.

And then modern slavery was born.

Could this have truly been the work of the god you believe in ?  Or was it a test ?  I look and I see, that it's a test I have passed, this easy path put before me.  This path of doctrine and acceptance.  'A place in the world'.

But it's just another temptation.  I cannot speak the word as you see it, I can only say what I know is true.  

Three months ... all I know is if it weren't important, I wouldn't have gained such strength in preparation for it.  So ... we'll see !  Be well.  

And be prepared.

The veils are lifted, and the lies are broken to babble.  Be prepared to sacrifice that which you do not truly need, and if you truly need it, it's only to help others.  This is the way.