With no attempt to be insulting, I think you know only what you're supposed to.  I think you may believe these things, but it doesn't make them true.  And even if they were, even if you told me Everything, I probably wouldn't believe you because one way or the other, the answers in your head will no doubt vindicate you.

I think what you've been told, true or not, was only told to you for these reasons.

To make you want to do what you've done.  A control.  A game and a lie.  And I think you likely believed that lie because it was easier, because it served your ego better to believe you were doing what you were supposed to do, for some 'greater good'.

Everything they've told you, was for precisely this purpose. 

So don't bother telling me what you think you know.  I won't believe you if you do, and frankly it will probably just sound insane.

You see I don't need 'the truth', never did.

Not even looking for it, though I've heard many tales anyway.  Many contrary to the other and some few not, equally dubious in of themselves.  'Alien hybrid'.  'Cold War Experiments Gone Wild'.  A 'cylon'.  A 'savior'.  The 'antichrist'.  'Angel'.  'Arch'  

God, Death and the Devil himself, I have heard it all.  

All these things up in peoples' heads, just to explain my existence.  It started at home when I was very young and some of those theories were not kind, because neither were they.  The theory always just sounds like the theorist.  

But I never really cared what the truth was, in fact I don't think there even is an answer.  Certainly not the one you've been told to control you, nor any answer you may think you have, to control me.

What I know is this.  You've got a story in your head which you've been told as a means of control, and I guarantee that story has no actual proof, because it was a lie.  Just another game, from another player, to make you the pawn.

It's because of what you think you know that you continue this game, but I am telling you it's all far simpler than whatever fantastical tale you've been told.

It's because I spoke against sexual predators, and you were told what was required for you to defend them.  You're a meat shield, protecting the dead.

Because of some lie, and who really cares what it was, which was easier to accept than your own complicity in Hell's deeds on Earth.

The systematic rape and ceremonial sacrifice of children.

And if those who told you these things new so much, don't you think they might have seen me coming ?  Don't you think they might have had a better plan ?  One which perhaps ... 'worked' ?

You know nothing.  

You may think you know something, but you don't.  That's the truth and no matter how much you deny it, I know you feel that in your bones.  You want to believe the comfortable lie you were told, but that it is so very comfortable, is how you recognize it the lie.  

I'm sorry if that truth hurts.  Makes you reflect on what you've done, how pointless it all was and how wrong, just to see the pawn you've been made for such base reasons and games.  But the truth it is nonetheless.

There is no answer. 

It's all just some shit that happened.