As for New Years, never really cared about it.  So flip a fucking calendar.  Woop !  But here we are nonetheless.  Resolutions ?

Nope !

I'm doin' fine.

You know, when I was a kid like around 12 or 13, in college with two jobs and a couple of bitch ass parents always yelling at me just because the other wasn't there at the time (while I was literally the most emotionally and financially stable person in the house), I was thinking ... 'what the hell do I want to be when I grow up !?

Not like them, that's all I knew for sure, their misery was weaponized and on constant display.  I thought about this, thought about that, never actually considered screenwriter.  

Settled on Jedi.

Wouldn't say magic works like 'tha force', but it does work in its own way.  Studied physics, chaos theory, learning to be the butterfly, bla bla bla, you've heard this part before.

But I also considered becoming Cobra Commander.

With the disclaimer to be a version that didn't lose all the time.  I was like nah that's evil.  But it did linger ... you know that way when you tell yourself something isn't true but you've got that feeling like you're lying to yourself.

Kinda like when that one ex was cheating on me.

You tell yourself it's not happening but you know ... you know ... 

It was a lot like that.  'World Domination' ... this was when the Russians were supposed to nuke us all, they literally told us that in Middle School.  Teachers were like 'not that it matters ... the Russians will probably kill us all'.

Very different thinking.

Cold War thinking.  Thinking of a kid who was jacked up on that shit the government scientist injected me with.  Took me out of Gym class ... just had to be Gym and not Math.  College two years later and two jobs.

What did I want to be ?

What I am.  All except that one lingering thing deep down inside, what I Really wanted to be wwhen I grew up.

Cobra Commander.  

So I guess my resolution would be to take over the world, but I already started that last month.  Could of timed it better.  Strangely enough, all the secret powers of the world are mostly okay with it.  Because wisdom.  

The old generation kicks and screams, cries like a big fat angry baby, but they're all like 80.  

The young generation has lost all faith if ever faith they had in any sort of governance, because insiders know what politics is all about, a thing under their control, While outsiders know if nothing else that politicians are full of shit.  They can see them moving like puppets, even without seeing the strings.

And so last month it came ... not sure why.  Just did.

I was like fuck it.  If this whole world is a bullshit arena, I'm probably the nicest possible person in a position to take it all.  So then and there began the steps.  Some mad furor before even a thought, like knowledge before reason, I dove right the fuck into destiny.

The cults ... they saw it coming.  They weren't willing to do business until I did.  They read people pretty well, they have to to spot the weakness in those they seek to influence so they knew.  They knew.  

I was not myself.  

They could see what I was to become, and they knew I was not there.  I don't know how they knew or how they saw it in their own terms, but they knew.  They waited.  And waited.  And waited.  And I knew why.

But I was afraid !

Not of death or pain, but of destiny.  Of the final option laid out before my if not by birth or injection.  "You Really want to fix this world ?  There's only one way that's possible.  You know what to do."

They are wise in their ways.

All sorts of predictions known among the higher ups about when where and who, and they'd already decided years ago.  They tested, poked and prodded, and saw until satisfaction.  But they did not respect the ways I avoided it.

That I lied to myself about who and what I am, what I'm here to do. 

So by the time we got to it just last month, it was more like a sigh of relief.  Fucked up thing is, among many, is that the Vatican was about the same way !

As above so below ... they all had the same prophesies.  Even China respects.  Apparently they all saw the same things, these historical sages who told of a time called now.  Everyone knew it was coming.  They'd already decided who.

But I refused.  Refused to be who I am.  Until I finally got it.  It had to happen and I'm the only one who could without war.  The only one who can simply 'make it so'.  Who could lead by wisdom over force, who had the power within to be feared, not by the usual militarized manipulations by which all others do fall.

And it did have to happen because look around !

It's all falling to shit while the wannabes sing their own praises all day long on their social media accounts.  Look at me look at me ... 

Pat on the head and a shiny.  Yes you were a very good boy this year ( ... ). 

Fucking pathetic.  That's the kind of fool who usually tries this, and that's why it never worked.  That's why I avoided it, because I could not be ... 'That'.

Kinda disgusting really. 

I've been hideous enough to wear a mask, radiation poisoning (because to whom else is that kind of shit normal !?  But it is to me).  Truly.  HIDEOUS.

Just to get to the store I had top wear mummy wraps over my disturbing face with welding goggles and a fedora because the sun hurt my eyes So bad ... total reasons for a world domination mask by my healing factor took care of it in a week.  Because in my life, that's normal too.

Too bad really, I think I looked pretty cool.

Definitely a worthy hideous face reveal at the end of the show, I looked like Deadpool meets Freddy Kruger.  Radiation poisoning is No Joke.  May have been an assassination attempt.  Who knows.  Shit happens.  All better now.

Or ...

Maybe I Did go insane, would I even know !?  Because here we are ... with the world in my grasp.  Leading by wisdom over force, but with the capacity of force beyond any army.  And then.  When finally I accepted that 'destiny', when finally I was satisfied that I'd chosen it, not that any force had chosen if for me, they really did lay the crown at my feet.

With practically an eye roll ... 'Bout time.'

Pf.  I think I was right to wait.  Any moment before it would not have been so easy.  New Year's resolution ?

Nope !

I like my life how it is, and it only gets better from here.  Mm.  Maybe not to let it make a little bitch like the rest who tried.  That's a good one.  I resolve not to be a whiny little attention needy man-baby like this and that motherfucker over here, how's that.

...

Well.

That brings us to Israel.

And a whole lot of very aged soon to dies who think that kind of bullshit still flies.  We will see You.  In November.  Your time is done.  

The left burned their pedophiles, now it's time for the right to do the same of there will be NOTHING Left for them, come this time next year.

You have my word.

Israel does not exist without America's money.  Or politicians need to stop acting like their bitches, when in fact, their politicians are ours.  They do not exist, without us and we just flushed the toilet in the left wing, coming soon on the right.

That's why.

Because that's the kind of shit I can do.  It's just ... 

You know it's really just too bad I'm not a bit more mask worthy hideous.  Not to wish a bunch of pain and suffering on my face again but still.  I mean would I goo hood or shiny face ?  Shiny face is probably cooler but the hood's probably more comfortable, breathing apparatus assumed in either.

I don't know ... just not the same without the hideous.  Hm.  Funny old world, ennit ?

Happy New Years.  How about we all resolve not to write the wrong date even once, sound good ?

Excellent ... muahaha.

And stop supporting genocide, relevant soulless fucking bastards who think they know what real power is.  You're old and insane, your legacy dies quietly in the night before your daylight eyes.  

Real power isn't to try, real power is to do and I did.